Tuesday, April 14, 2009

Found what I was looking for....(more rambling I think)

Well as you may know I was in a "funk" for a while but I am fine now. I have come up with a game plan to make the changes in my life that will make me happy and keep me happy. I have done a lot of searching for answers and trying to figure out what it was that was making me so unhappy and I learned what that was and the next few months will be full of changes in my life. Some people may not understand them or agree with them but I am ok with that because I have learned that I do not have to please EVERYONE I only need to please myself and that I come FIRST... For so long I thought that I had to do everything for everyone and I lost myself doing that. I have learned through my searching that I have let myself go, that it is time to get myself back to where I was. I can no longer use my cancer as an excuse to be unhappy it is time to shut the door to the past and look ahead to my future one that will be filled with LOVE, Happiness and tons of Laughter... Oh how I have missed the laughter.... I have missed the music in my life... I am so in love with life right now I could just scream.. I am awake to all of its possibilities and I am going to enjoy each and every minute of it!! I am no longer going to put my life on hold because I could miss out on so much if I do and I have already missed out on too much.... I am going to tell people how I really feel about them, I am going to let go of the anger, the resentment all the things that made me unhappy. I am special. I am worthy of love and happiness and all the great things in life... It is amazing how when you are looking for one thing something completely different appears, it really has baffled me. I am not going to try and figure that out I am just going to enjoy each and every second of it. It has given me hope it has given me peace... Love, Happiness and Laughter is all a person needs...

Monday, April 13, 2009

Regnier and Tryon Palace

I was in need of a Regnier "fix" so today Sierra, Hunter and I headed to New Bern to visit him~ After talking with him on the phone we decided that we would tour the Tryon Palace ~ We purchased our tickets in the morning decided we would do the noon tour since that would give us time to check out the Dixon House and the gardens before our tour was to begin~  I was a little nervous about taking Hunter into the Dixon House as well as the Palace since he is only 4 but he was PERFECT, he didn't touch anything and stayed right next to either Tyler or myself the entire time~ Anyway I loved all the fine details in both the Palace as well as the Dixon House~ I guess you could say that Tyler and I were the only ones (in our tour group) who really appreciated the intricate details in the moulding's and trim in both homes~ We also fell in love with the staircase in the Palace, one word to describe it would be AMAZING!!! I wish we were able to take photos inside so that I could show you all but it wasn't allowed~ While we were waiting for the tour to begin Tyler had kind of given us a tour of the grounds since he had been there before~ I fell in love with the gardens at the Palace~ They had such a wonderful variety of Tulips it was just full of color, granted not as beautiful as the Biltmore Estate but I was still in awe of the red and white tulips as well as the pink ones, not to mention the size of them, I have never seen tulips so big before~ After the tour we went and grabbed something to eat and just sat around and talked for about an hour, it was so great to catch up with Tyler and meet his new companion~ I didn't realize how much I really missed him until today~ It is amazing how friendships are formed and how people come into our lives~ What is even more funny is that Tyler and I didn't like one another when he first arrived in Cary but yet there isn't anything I wouldn't do for him and vise versa~ Friendships what a wonderful gift!! 

Monday, April 6, 2009

Beautiful Weekend

This weekend was the "perfect" spring weather weekend!! We started the weekend with us hanging out with the Grandparents and playing ball out at their house and watching General Conference there.. I really enjoyed the the talks given at conference.. But I hate to say this I enjoyed playing ball with my children more. I loved hearing the laughter from them as Hunter would hit the ball, I think he is going to be a switch hitter just like his big sister Sierra. I also enjoyed playing on the swings and playing with Shadow, their black lab.... It was just perfect weather all weekend, in the 70's with blue sky, white puffy clouds and a slight breeze at times.. It doesn't get any better than that!! Then on Sunday we went to the park in between sessions for conference. I pitched to Sierra so she could get some practice in and she did pretty good, she just needs to learn to not pull her head and watch the ball a little more. I know that comes with experience so I won't hold it against her right now. I also pitched to Hunter for a little while, that is until he got tired of hitting and wanted to play on the playground.. So we spent about an hour on the playground and boy was he tired when we got home, so tired in fact the boy actually took a nap.. I would say this has been a weekend to remember even if all we did was play ball but it was wonderful family time... I love the spring!!! I hope you all were able to get outside and enjoy the weather also...