Found what I was looking for....(more rambling I think)

Well as you may know I was in a "funk" for a while but I am fine now. I have come up with a game plan to make the changes in my life that will make me happy and keep me happy. I have done a lot of searching for answers and trying to figure out what it was that was making me so unhappy and I learned what that was and the next few months will be full of changes in my life. Some people may not understand them or agree with them but I am ok with that because I have learned that I do not have to please EVERYONE I only need to please myself and that I come FIRST... For so long I thought that I had to do everything for everyone and I lost myself doing that. I have learned through my searching that I have let myself go, that it is time to get myself back to where I was. I can no longer use my cancer as an excuse to be unhappy it is time to shut the door to the past and look ahead to my future one that will be filled with LOVE, Happiness and tons of Laughter... Oh how I have missed the laughter.... I have missed the music in my life... I am so in love with life right now I could just scream.. I am awake to all of its possibilities and I am going to enjoy each and every minute of it!! I am no longer going to put my life on hold because I could miss out on so much if I do and I have already missed out on too much.... I am going to tell people how I really feel about them, I am going to let go of the anger, the resentment all the things that made me unhappy. I am special. I am worthy of love and happiness and all the great things in life... It is amazing how when you are looking for one thing something completely different appears, it really has baffled me. I am not going to try and figure that out I am just going to enjoy each and every second of it. It has given me hope it has given me peace... Love, Happiness and Laughter is all a person needs...